dirty laundry

i've been on this random truth/disclosure kick lately. It's been pretty interesting, for example telling my parents random things i never told them, things i did, things i didn't do, etc. I kinda was more interested in how people react to it. For the most part, it hasn't really exploded in my face and i've realized that virtually all the random things i have withheld or fibbed about have been pretty trivial in nature, and really had no harmful effects surrounding them.

Right now i don't really see the need to sugarcoat or hide anything, and i don't really see the purpose of white lies in general, with exception to surprise parties and other happy surprise things or practical jokes you play on friends. What's the point? Saving face doesn't get you anywhere, in fact it gets you knee deep in shit drama, which is just a waste time in general. More importantly it's a waste of my time. And if you can't admit to your own actions or feelings or thoughts, well, lets just say it's way too common and it's pretty lame and predictable to have cowardice of your own actions.

you might ask, well am I being hypocritical? Maybe yes maybe no. I dunno i can think of like 1 or 2 things i've been idling on for a hot minute, mostly i've been waiting for the right time and place to disclose this presently unmentionable truth, which i have been vaguely beating around the bush about for quite some time....I know the reaction that's going to take place, i just need to experience it firsthand, then i'll be somewhat relieved. No i'm not gay or pregnant (sorry ladies, sorry mom, joking mom!)